Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Procrastination is the Root of all evil

I know i've ranted like a gazzilion times about the process of writing my thesis. Right now it's absolutely unbearable. U know that feeling like you know u gotta do something but you just can't seem to do it even if u know that you absolutely have to? And semua perasaan campur aduk because I've just realised that I dont know what to do at all in the following year (2007) and it's driving me nuts. One thing I know is that I'm not coming back to University to do the PhD that Trevor had assigned for me. Agh.. But if i told my parents that I dont want to do the PhD, they're get so pissed and gonna interogasi gua berjam2 tanya wat it is i want to do with my life and what's gonna happen to my career. Kyaaa... And then seeing other people are doing so well and so steady towards their life, it frustrates me even more. And the last thing is I hate having no motivation to do anything, I've never had any form of motivation. I dont know why. Trully, I'm really worried for the coming years..I feel like I'm stuck in this moment for as long as i know, but still I havent found a way out. Gr.. i hate this feeling...


Mood: Agitated

8 comments:

Unknown said...

> U know that feeling like you know u gotta do something but you just can't seem to do it even if u know that you absolutely have to?

happens with every thesis, best thing to do is break everything down into small pieces.

> I dont know what to do at all in the following year (2007) and it's driving me nuts

ah, choice, terrible isn't it? ;) take a risk, what have you to lose?

> thing I know is that I'm not coming back to University to do the PhD

prob best to work for a while, then you'll come running back for the PhD;)

Unknown said...

Also, I'm going thru a similar thing at the moment, i suspect one either has these kinda moods or is just bored (sometimes, maybe, happy) so prob best to not worry too much...

what's you thesis about btw?

Angie said...

Hey John,

Since I'm doing biology, my thesis is on this new procedure which I had developed on to replace the need for human donor cornea.
Basically, I used pig cornea which you get from the abatoir and then clean it and treat it then grow human corneal stem cells. Something like that. But it's only 100 pages long, including reference and acknowledgements, table and contents bla bla bla, the actual writing itself shouldnt be that much i think. LoL.. it's due in 2 weeks time!! (T.T). I slept last night, and now i'm feeling better. I did break parts of my thesis so I do little pieces everyday. Thanks for the advice, I am going to work next year, hahaha just gotta find one - somewhere T.T, as for the PhD - my supervisor had asked me to comeback July 2007 -> I just think it's too early, u know PhD is really a hardout commitment, and I will be almost 21 by then... that's pretty young i think. LoL, wanna have fun first. Yeah boredom sucks, even worse is stuck in the moment and you can't get out (lyk the U2 song..hehe) What do you do?

Angie said...

Hey John,

Since I'm doing biology, my thesis is on this new procedure which I had developed on to replace the need for human donor cornea.
Basically, I used pig cornea which you get from the abatoir and then clean it and treat it then grow human corneal stem cells. Something like that. But it's only 100 pages long, including reference and acknowledgements, table and contents bla bla bla, the actual writing itself shouldnt be that much i think. LoL.. it's due in 2 weeks time!! (T.T). I slept last night, and now i'm feeling better. I did break parts of my thesis so I do little pieces everyday. Thanks for the advice, I am going to work next year, hahaha just gotta find one - somewhere T.T, as for the PhD - my supervisor had asked me to comeback July 2007 -> I just think it's too early, u know PhD is really a hardout commitment, and I will be almost 21 by then... that's pretty young i think. LoL, wanna have fun first. Yeah boredom sucks, even worse is stuck in the moment and you can't get out (lyk the U2 song..hehe) What do you do?

Anonymous said...

Ola lolita... hohoho... maybe the best way to encourage yourself is to take a time out... maybe do something you love or something you long to do... in my case, if i get stuck... i leave everything and pick up my camera, go on a motorcycle trip for a day... come back fresh and ready to battle again... PHD eh... consider yourself lucky, because many of my friends are dying to get a PHD and cannot get it...

Unknown said...

that thesis topic sounds interesting! what's the challenging part (if you can summarise in a sentence ;)

yeh, i don't think phd is fun at all -- altho sooo tempting -- too much focus on a narrow area required.

r u really only 20?? don't believe! do a masters instead, much more fun!

what do i do? now finance... but in my previous life i studied economics and loved it so much...

Angie said...

haha.. the most challenging part is to keep motivated each day.haha
yeah, i'm 20.. will be 21 next year august. I'm just worried about my parents.. if they know that I dont want to do it, they'll get really pissed.. and it's too much effort trying to explain to them what it is i'm feeling (i.e. i want a break and wanna have fun..) but i know i'll do it again one day, may be when i'm 22-23.. 21 is too early.. wayyyy..too early...

i think finance is a really cool thing to do too.. i might wanna do an MBA instead of the PhD.. but i'm still not sure yet. did u do an MBA?

Unknown said...

> did u do an MBA?

No i did an MSc. in economics and management -- just the same I reckon, but for ppl who already have done the basics of management and economics...

I really should try some of your recipes... wonder if I could find all the ingredients here in Dublin...